Among the Chaos

I work from our front room. I finished school without ever touching a computer, but now I can’t write longhand. I think best in front of a keyboard and screen. At school – primary and secondary – I was constantly reprimanded for staring out the window. I don’t think I could help it, which didn’t stop teachers being exasperated. Now I have two windows to the street. I know who gets food delivered and when. Who is late for school pick up. I monitor the increasingly faltering gait of the woman on the corner. There are several new babies in the neighbourhood, and all I want is to run out and peer into their prams. Somehow I stop myself. A friend several doors down calls me Mrs Mangel. I assumed she meant Mrs Jessop. Google reveals that the same person, Vivean Gray, played the same stereotyped busybody curtain twitcher in different soapies, The Sullivans and Neighbours. The cap fits. I take my window watching duty seriously. One morning a naked man sauntered past. Imagine missing that. I find writing hard, as many of us do, and the window reminds me of where I would rather be. But in the foreground, always, the screen and the keyboard. I give them my reluctant attention, for a little while, then back to gazing.

Michael Winkler is a writer of fiction and non-fiction. His latest novel is Griefdogg. His previous novel Grimmish, shortlisted for the Miles Franklin Literary Award, was published in the UK, North America and Spain (in translation). Michael won the Calibre Prize for his essay ‘The Great Red Whale’. His journalism, reviews, short fiction and essays have been widely published and anthologised.